to at the very least, get a half sleeve. This is something I’ve been talking about for years. I’ve always wanted to at least get a half sleeve, if not a full sleeve. I struggled with it because of my life decision to become a speech and debate teacher. I will always have to cover it up. I will have to wear long sleeves every single day to work, especially in Texas weather. It would be awful. But, at the end of the day, I can’t stop being who I am just because it’s unacceptable to the rest of society. It sucks that people in the workplace look down on it and it sucks even more that my dad looks at me like I’m stupid because of it but, it’s my life and my body and it’s what I love. Tattoos make me happy, they’re the purest and most permanent form of expression. And when used correctly, they provide the most outward look into someone’s soul and that makes me really happy. So, why should my happiness stop where someone else’s judgement begins? I don’t think that life should work that way. Tomorrow, I’m going to go find a job and then start reading ahead on my classes. That is going to make me feel so much better at the end of the night; that I got something accomplished. There are so many things that I want to do this summer and that makes everything really nerve wracking right now. If I can’t get a job and if I can’t get out of the hole I’m in and into a better position, none of the things I want might happen and that would suck so bad. My goal is to be at least halfway through my list of shit to do by the end of the summer, I only have one year to make a lot of this shit happen before I move to San Marcos and go to Texas State and I need it to happen so that when I do move, I can move onto the goals that are specifically for after I transfer to a university. Before that, I’d like to do a lot of things while I’m still in San Antonio. I’m probably not going to sleep tonight. As much as I would like to, I can’t seem to rest because I have way too much on my mind. Plus, I have to give this laptop back tomorrow for two weeks and I’m probably not going to get on tumblr very much once that happens so, I’d like to do some last minute things with this laptop like sync my itunes, which takes forever, like ten hours. So, yeah. It’s going to be a long night. I’m thinking about calling someone right now but I know it’s probably not a good idea. I really wish I could just have the motivation to do what I need to do and not do what I shouldn’t do. But, it doesn’t seem like that’s going to happen. Haha.
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